unsettled ground.

what's next.

the question comes up again and again throughout my day. what are you doing this summer, when you're done school, tomorrow, next monday, in five years, in may, in august... the questions of what, who where fill my time these days. it's quite unsettling. i want so hard to trust, but i want so hard to control. i know all the pieces will fall into place and i know that it will be exactly where God wants me. i just wish i knew sooner then later. i want to plan, make a list of things to do, tasks to complete and then just check them off. the problem is i don't know what to put on my list right now.

So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Your Love is Strong.

so, who knew a couple of months into the year the recurring theme of stillness would hit back again. i guess my life lesson for today is take it slow. don't rush it. let us fix our eyes upon Jesus the author and perfecter of our faith (Hebrews 12:2). rest in knowing His grace and the peace that passes all understanding will be with you. i feel that i need to rest and know peace right now.

i kind of like this...

1. O soul, are you weary and troubled?
   No light in the darkness you see?
   There’s light for a look at the Savior,
   And life more abundant and free!
   • Refrain:
     Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
     Look full in His wonderful face,
     And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
     In the light of His glory and grace.
2. Through death into life everlasting
   He passed, and we follow Him there;
   O’er us sin no more hath dominion—
   For more than conquerors we are!

His Word shall not fail you—He promised;
Believe Him, and all will be well:
Then go to a world that is dying,
His perfect salvation to tell
- Helen H. Lemmel, 1922